The reason why I started blogging.

I decided to start blogging because I wanted to be honest with MYSELF and I thought that by writing my feelings down I could also see whats swimming in my heart. This is because I tend to ignore that nagging feeling and when it's in writting through my blog I have no other option but to face it.Be more HONEST! I Just DON'T want to sugarcoat things. I want to be real with everything. You're probably asking where is this coming from. Well it's just that I've seen it,in drastic forms and the everyday situation where its like we've lost touch with reality and we think we're bout to break into song after a tragedy like they do in a disney movie. For example Thabo Mbeki saying there's no crisis in Zimbabwe and the HIV thing. Also just seeing how us as young woman can stay with a man and continually lie to ourselves about him lying to us. Like I've done that, my friends have done it,most women do it and it aint pretty. I think also, what hit me was when I heard the lady who wrote beautys gift say something on the lines of we lie to ourselves and tell our friends "oh he bought me this and that for my birthday,when he actualy forgot your birthday and it's the lies which end up killing us" Honestly it's sad. It's not only with men but we also lie to ourselves and stay with toxic friends. Sometimes I think we try to hard to be positive that we end up living a lie. Obviously you gota be positive but within the frames of reality.I wana be more in tuned with my intuition.Its about me and the relationship I have with myself. So I hope that through expressing myself in my blogg, Il be able to face the truth in my feelings.