Im no expert.

I'm no expert on relationships...gosh my past is a testimony to that. So when i got into this one,roughly three months ago, I was like, you know what Thokozani, you can be everything to a man and do everything in a relationship to make it work but when the curtains close and the lights are out, it's over and you can't do anything to change it. Yea in the past I made sure that I was the best girlfriend I could be, but where did that get me? Cause when that man don't want you no more, you can't do nothing bout it but leave with grace.
So when I got into this relationship I told myself that at the end of it all, whether the end be 70 years from now or 24 hours from now, I wana look back and be like I was not the best girlfriend ever but I was the best me I could be and I had a great time doing it.
I wana look back and be like, wow i had such a good time.
You can't go wrong with being true to yourself,so if respecting him is apart of being a great girlfriend, well then good for him cause thats just how I am naturally.

broody

I am so broody right now...when I see a baby or any kid, my heart just melts.
Dont get me wrong I understand that its alot of work and trust me I want to bring a kid into this world when I've planned for him or her and within a family environment. Aw but kids are just so adorable.


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I'm that rose.

Been through it all heard it all and fought it all. Here I stand my faith not waivering, I am that rose that grew from the conercte .

I love this poem and song by 2 pac cause it's bout every women. When I read it, it reminds me of my friends, their moms,me and the strongest and most selfless women I know, my gran.


The rose that grew from the conrete by Tupac Shakur:


You try to plant somethin in the conrete, y'knowhatImean?


If it GROW, and the and the rose petal got all kind of


scratches and marks, you not gon' say, "Damn, look at


all the scratches and marks on the rose that grew from concrete"


You gon' be like, "Damn! A rose grew from the concrete?!"


Same thing with me, y'knahmean? I grew out of all of this


Instead of sayin, "Damn, he did this, he did this,"


just be like, "DAMN! He grew out of that? He came out of that?"


That's what they should see, y'knowhatImean?


All the trouble to survive and make good out of the dirty, nasty


y'knowhahatImean unbelievable lifestyle they gave me


I'm just tryin to make somethin..






[Nikki Giovanni]


When no one even cared


The rose it grew from concrete


Keepin all these dreams


Provin nature's laws wrong


It learned how to walk without havin feet


It came from concrete






[spoken part]


Did you hear about the rose that grew from a crack in the concrete?


Provin nature's laws wrong it learned how to walk without havin feet


Funny it seems but, by keepin its dreams


it, learned to breathe FRESH air


Long live the rose that grew from concrete


when no one else even cared


No one else even cared..


The rose that grew from concrete






[spoken part]


Did you hear..


Did you hear about the rose that grew from a crack in the concrete?


Provin nature's laws wrong


It learned to walk without having feet


Funny it seems but by keeping its dreams


it learned to breathe FRESH air


Long live the rose that grew from concrete


when no one else, even cared






[Nikki Giovanni]


Keepin all these dreams


Provin nature's laws wrong


It learned how to walk without havin feet (to breathe the fresh air)


It came from concrete (to breathe the fresh air)


(to breathe the fresh air, to breathe the fresh air)






[Tupac Shakur]


You see you wouldn't ask why the rose that grew from the concrete


had damaged petals. On the contrary, we would all celebrate its


tenacity. We would all love it's will to reach the sun.


Well, we are the rose - this is the concrete - and these are


my damaged petals. Don't ask me why, thank God nigga, ask me how!


Hahahaha..
 
 
 

Can I take some time out.

 I wish i could just leave everything and go to some island and work as a waitress. Stay there for the whole year. Work during  the day and party hard and night. I wan to meet people who are real,uncompetitive and  authentic.I just want to get away from the pressures and expectations of my family and live my life the way I want.

"smile though your heart is aching"

Think today for some reason or the other I've decided to not sweat the small stuff. I've heard this so many times, but today I made a decision to really live by this motto. The song "smile" really embodies the message of being shaken but not stirred,lol.But I do think this song has lived on because each generation has realised the importance of not allowing life's obstacles take away one's inner joy and peace.
"Smile" was written in 1936 by John Turner and Geoffrey Parsons, the music was by Charlie Chaplin. Here are the lyris:

Smile though your heart is aching
smile even though it's breaking
when there are clouds in the sky,you'll get by.
If you smile through your fear and sorrow,
smile and maybe tomorrow,
you'll see the sun come shinning through for you.
Light up your face with gladness, hide every trace of sadness
although a tear maybe ever so near.
That's the time you must keep on trying,smile whats the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,if you just smile.

Why are things never like how they're supposed to be?

Don't you ever wish that things could be like how they're supposed to be. For example, you meet a guy and you like him, but he doesn't like you, isn't he supposed to like you back... Or all married couples are supposed to have a relationship like Will and Jada Smith. It's heartbreaking when you go into something and it's totally not what it's supposed to be or what you expected it to be.
So where do our expectations come from, cause it's not like life has a script of how every moment is gona play out. I believe that we're actually trying to relive a romance film or some rnb song, then when he doesnt return our love like how the song said he would,we then believe that we've failed.

We need to all get in touch with reality and stop trying to live out a disney fairy tale or a song written by someone who's never fallen in love.Everyone is going to have a different story in life, own your story and be proud of it.

live and laugh