Thats all there is to it.

I can't change the fact that life can be unfair, I can't change the way people are that they're good at concentrating at other peoples mistakes instead of theirs. However The only thing that I can change is the way I react, never playing the victim, never walking away and always fighting back the best way I know how... Where are prayer warriors at? For this battle is not ours but Gods.

womaning up

Dont know how to define womaning up, but its just something I feel like I gota do.

The fake truth.

I often meet people who seem to be so perfect, then they do something or you find something out about them. It just makes you realise that perfection is an illusion. It's like the people that seem to be perfect are just really good at faking perfection.

Why I find it hard to let people in.

There was a point in my life where I'd feel so alone & empty when I was single. I hated it so much. However things have changed, I'm so scared to let people in cause I'm so scared that they're gonna take away my peace. I'm really enjoying being me. I dont know how I got to this state of constant joy and peace. Maybe it's my attitude of being grateful for the simple things or it could be that I've learnt not to compare myself but to celebrate my individuality, I have no idea what it is but I know that it's all the works of Jesus Christ. I've experienced so much fear,worry and anxiety in my life time that being here and feeling so safe and at peace seems like a dream.

After some much thought and consideration, I finally let someone into my life. I feel like I have something to learn from them, the way they are and how they live their life is something that could expand me in a way which I can't explain. Im open to just enjoying the ride and seeing where it'll take me.
No worrying or stressing.

And then what?

People will always be saying mean things bout people behind their backs, its human nature. Either we grow a thick skin, stay strong against their malicious lies or we let our emotions become victims of other peoples lack of maturity. It's hard to stand firm as people throw mud in your face, but thats the only option we all have.

Twists and turns.

Today I've decided to do nothing cause I have a cold, so I'm gonna nurse myself, gosh I hate being sick...so I'm at home, and being at home alone you have nothing but your thoughts.I'm really just praying that what God has put me in doesn't result in me being dissapointed. The thing is I know God wants the best for me and when this came into my life, he knows as well as I do that I wouldn't have said no, I would seize the opportunity. The timing seemed so right and everything else was all clear. Now certain things are coming up, things that make me wonder if history is about to repeat itself. I can only trust that God has my back and that the truth, whatever it is, will be to my favour and will make my life as bright as it is right now.